"All you need is love, love, love. Love is all you need."♥

“I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not because I was talented or even beautiful, but because I had never belonged to anything or anyone else.”
― Marilyn Monroe♥

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”-James Dean♥

Life has been taking a toll on me. Not as much as other people's lives are, but I've always been a lazy bum so I'm not used to going out of my way to really work for things. Not saying I've always gotten what I wanted, but I am spoiled. Not in the materialistic way though. I'm not a materialistic girl. I don't need the "finer things" in life, or a diamond ring, or a gold necklace. All I ever want and need is some good loving. I need and want to feel special. Feeling important to someone, feeling love by someone is something that money cannot buy, and I have one of the best lovers in the world.

So I've been working at my office for over a year, and with the responsibilities that I've been given, and my new position, I really feel more confident in myself more than ever. I feel like I'm not afraid to go out there, out to the world. The only thing that sucks is that I haven't gotten a raise yet, but with the opportunity that I've been given, and the knowledge of things that I would never thought I would know about, I am just that much more confident in myself and my future. I know that it's going to take a lot for me to get where I want to be, to be who I want to be, and now more than ever, I have to steer away from my future and take care of a few things, but I really feel like more than ever, this is something that I want to do for the rest of my life. Something that I really want to be and although it's not in the picture right now, I won't give up on dreaming about it and actually making it happen. I've never wanted something so bad before that I can't stop thinking about it.

I've mentioned before that growing up I had one of the most supportive family anyone could ever ask for. Even when the worst came to worst, I alone, was always trying to be stronger than ever. Even now, I always try to remain positive when bad things happens. I really have the past to thank. For molding me into the person that I am today, for allowing me to grow from my mistakes, for allowing me and giving me the opportunity to experience what it's like to really love, to really care, to really hurt, to really feel what's real. For allowing me to know what I want out of life and out of the people I've encountered. It may take some time for me to really get where I want to be, to have the life that I want, but I have faith that it's going to happen for me. That I'm going to make it. This is a promise that I've made to myself and I'm going to do whatever it takes to achieve it. I will never stop believing, and I will never stop believing myself.

Sometimes your heart breaks, that's all. Everything may seem and look normal on the surface, but if you digged deeper, you know it all hurts the same.