Truth is

I'm not the sappy, hopeless romantic girl I used to be. If you knew me now or have just met me, you wouldn't think that I knew what love is/was. You wouldn't think that I get my heart broken, you wouldn't think that I care or knew how to be affectionate. But you're completely wrong. I was that girl, I used to be that girl, but of course things happen and you change. You build walls to keep people out, instead of bridges to let them in.

“I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and not try to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.”

Somebody that I used to know,

Changes,

Whenever I tell people I don't like eating meat, 95% (true fact) of their response is,"Why? Are you allergic...?" No...not liking it is a choice. I'm considering becoming a pescetarian again. I've done it for 3-4 years before, but started eating meat again because my hair stopped growing and I myself, also stopped growing. Now that I'm older I know that there are things I could substitute to get the same amount of protein and iron =) At the time, I didn't really get the support I needed to follow through in the long-run considering that I was always underweight and was constantly lectured by my mom about how important meat is. Also, from almost every single person that I encounter, was friends with, and my relatives. I don't like meat because I've never been fond of the taste, even as a kid, so I've always eaten everything but meat. One of the main reasons I chose to follow through even more with becoming a pescetarian/vegetarian at the time was because my love for animals, which is a very big part of why I don't want to eat animals anymore. I really am so used to eating seafood so I can't find myself giving it up completely, but maybe I can really do this.

Of course I know about the "circle of life," I know that our bodies need protein, I know that just because I'm not eating a piece of steak doesn't mean that another cow's life is spared. I know, I know, I know. But this a choice that I feel is right for me.

JenniferAnne xx