Because the future is mine & I have full control.

I find it rather funny when I am really inspired by movies more than books. I mean, the point of movies is intended to entertain but then they add in a little bit more, a meaning, a lesson, something that relates to people that goes along with their everyday lives. In Yes Man I would say, Kevin is Jim Carey before he decided to agree to everything. I love fun and spontaneous people who aren't afraid of changes and is open-minded to new things. That's how I am trying to convince him to be. He says no to everything and make excuses all the time to set off things in hope of it leaving him alone. In my world, if you can't hang with me, you're out. But I can't blame him for not wanting to do something if he doesn't want to. All I can do is persuade him though by showing him life's way too short so just live it up with no regrets; ever.

The store is opening in two weeks, I really can't wait to work! Especially with people I love, isn't that just great? It wouldn't really even feel like working because we practiced at home for about two months, just with customers this time. I know it won't be easy but I know in the long-run all that hard work is definitely so worth it.

With money, I am going to save it. I know a lot of people always tend to say they'll start saving and end up spending, but it's because they go shopping a lot and buy unnecessary things. Since I don't like shopping anyway, it's all good! =) And I can buy everything online which is so much easier. I am going to save up for my car, and guess what, I will get it before Summer! Don't doubt me, I know if I put my mind to it, I can do it. Then I would feel so much better going out because I'll have money to fall back on and spend with no worries. I'll get to sign up for lessons and events that I can actually do and not just want to do like before. Spontaneity doesn't just happen, you have to make it happen. And I will make it happen, I am going to take trips once in awhile, reward myself with things I want, buy stuff for people I care about, and simply just live life with no limits. If you dream it, you can do it! Of course, have safe fun though and know that everything is going to be alright. Even if there's a slight moment that things are going downhill, I just need to have faith in myself that things can only get better from there. When you fall, there's nothing else you can do but just simply get back up. Bandage those scars, heal those wounds, nothing in the world can hurt you unless you give it the power to.

Anyway, on a different subject.
I realized, and I'm admitting it now, I actually do have a "b*tch" side to me. I know everyone has one but to me, I am an easy-going, always friendly, nice person in general. I don't want to ever have that image of I'm a hard-in-your-face kind of girl, let alone a "bitch." I may look intimidating only because I'm not one of those people who would be friends with just anybody. You can always pick who your friends are, right? I hardly ever get mad or hold onto a grudge with anyone no matter how much they did me wrong. As long as you're considerate enough to attempt to talk to me or even apologize, that's good enough for me. Apparently, I am a very critical person. The only people who have dealt/seen with my mean side is probably Kevin and my family. I'm not ever intentionally a bitchy person and it's really hard to get to me but I do have that side and I'm not proud of it, but I mean, that's why they call it 'your worst' for a reason. Most of the time too it's because I'm stubborn and think I'm always right so I fight for what I believe in. It's really hard for me to admit though that I can be a bitch because bitches=mean people. Guess people really have to get under my skin for my claws to come out.