kill them with kindness.

I don't know, maybe it hurts to see you don't care as much as you used to so I just can't bare the fact you're letting a part of yourself go, and that part of you loved me most.

I don't know, maybe because I love you with all of my heart that I want you to be happy, I really do. But I want you happy with me.

I don't know, maybe because when I stay up late every night thinking everything about us, and I'm just pondering on how things could turn out this way. How did we let ourselves turn out this way?

I don't know, maybe it's the fact you said you won't change for the better because that's who you are, makes me despise who you really are. Your lack of effort, your lack of change.

I don't know, maybe because I can do better but I believe you're the perfect one for me. Even if we ourselves are imperfect, but I want you and only you.

I don't know, maybe ever since we stopped hanging out because you're always tired from school and never want to take me home, I just stay at home and curl in a ball, thinking to myself how much I made you such a big part of my life.

I don't know, maybe I distant myself so much from my friends because someone tends to fall for me and I never want that to happen ever again because it hurt you.

I don't know, maybe because I'm always thinking about you and never put myself first that I always think ahead so I don't hurt you. I never want to hurt you. I wish you thought the same for me.

I don't know, maybe some day you'll realize all of this time that you're out having fun, doing irresponsible stuff, ignoring our relationship and neglecting me and my feelings, you'll sooner or later realized you took me for granted.

I don't know, maybe it's time for me to let go.

But you don't understand, people don't understand, it's not easy to just let go. No matter how bad things get, love never fails. But how much can one person handle? How much can my heart handle? I think all of these positive thoughts and truths with my mind, with my logic, but it's the heart that's feeling pain. And that's the part that matters most. You think it's not a big deal but it really is, how can you not see it? I swear you're like a selfish 10 year old.


I would kill for some Almond Mocha Fudge ice cream, a bag of Hot Lays, two bag of Funnyns, sour cream pretzel, and a Big Mac right now. That will sure let my mind be at ease for awhile =)