Seasons are changing, and so am I.

I don't enjoy blogging anymore. Even though I like knowing people really acknowledge my thoughts, but for now, I don't have anything inspiring. My depth in my heart is just too complex, I can't seem to find anything that bothers me enough to write down or something that makes me completely happy to let the world know.

Once you're not there for me, someone else will be. Time to myself just make me feel as if I'm by myself, as if I don't even have a boyfriend. I don't know, my mind is always somewhere else now. I just need a sign.

I'm just going to drop it, not drop this situation but set aside all of this. I kind of don't need this right now, I don't need anyone to disappoint or hurt me when I don't deserve it. I know its been going on for awhile now but this time, it's not something I am willing to fight for. I can't be in a vulnerable state, I've build up my world to not let it all fall down right in front of my eyes. I need to do what I have to do, with or without you. I can't use the reason why I love you then, now. Things have changed, I have changed, you have changed. We've grown up. It just makes me sad the thought that if I let you go, you wouldn't even care. That, and also, if I let you go, what if you'll be ten times happier with the world than with me. But I can't contradict my decisions, no matter how much we love each other, how much we love what we have/had, sometimes it all doesn't hold up anymore. I don't want to make hasty decisions that I know I might wish I didn't make later on. But it all comes down to this, tomorrow all comes down to this when we hangout. If it's going to work then it will, if you belong to me then you'll always have my heart and I have your's, if not you were never mine. It's simple as that.

Today happened like it did,
so tomorrow can happen like it should.