Shut up and let me go!

Kevin really drove me nuts yesterday when we were on our way to South Coast. I really wanted to go Chris Brown on him...but to be honest, I don't mind when we fight because we just become stronger and stronger each time. So we OFFICIALLY decided not to go to Winter Formal. I mean we're always indecisive and say maybe, yes, no, then change our minds but hopefully this time we're for sure we're not going. I really don't want to go, but then again I do. At the same time though I rather Kevin and I spend that money on something more mediocre. We are going to have a full date that day, so excited =) <3

I need my life to start already, the spontaneous and adventurous life I mean! I'm the kind of girl who can't stand still, I must be moving all the time, I need spice in my life every time, only boring people get bored anyway. I need to go to my first concert! I would only go though if it's a band or artist I really love, just put my band tee on and rock out =) Either TBS, Death Cab, or COMMON has to be my first concert. Lykke Li was performing at the Glasshouse though but I didn't know whether or not I should go because everything's been kind of hectic lately. I just need life to get back to normal, for a little bit at least so I don't really have to feel stressed.

I really don't get stressed though, but people who are stressed just turns my head upside down. My mom has been driving me nuts, it's like she tells me she can do everything on her own and doesn't need me, then she goes ahead and order me around. I don't mind, she's my mom and she just got out of surgery, but playing that card saying I don't do anything is just really upsetting because Kim and I are the only ones who are there for her the most and we do literally everything in the house. It's so unappreciative of her to just lash out on us when she doesn't even know we have our own life and things to deal with. She keeps worrying about my dad, and the thing that makes me upset in this situation is that I thought he came down from Washington because he wants to make things right for this whole family and better himself. Then we don't see him for two days, I love him with all my heart but he's not a kid anymore. He has a family that he needs to stand up to, and if he doesn't want to live up to the role of being a dad then we don't mind because we didn't expect anything from him right away when he's back, just be there like he said he is going to be. This is the whole life changing thing I was talking about. I'm not scared of change, believe me, I just have a lot on my hands that I wish didn't come at me all at once.

I can't say I got it bad because I know there are others who have it worse than I do. I just need to take a break. Thank goodness for melon bars, food makes me feel so comfortable and happy =) Adding to that also Friends seasons makes me happy too. And my bubbbba, and keeeem.


Okay actually I'm pretty happy and thankful.