Happy,

Reaaal happy that is.
I just had dinner with my ohana =)
It really makes me appreciate life with time like these.
I always felt like it was always just my mom, kim & I.
Karina got her own thing & Tiff is never really home.
I absolutely love family bonding time.
Even without my dad, I feel as if my family is stronger than ever. For
the most part.

I'm always trying to see the bright side of things.
No matter what the situation or problem is; I'll try.

It's the little things that can always make me happy.
Like, it's all just effort ya'know?
Attention to small details, listening to every little thing.
Doesn't matter if we're upset, in the end everything's alright again.
I just need to let you in sometimes.
Other times, I hurt you without even realizing it.
I guess because we're not always on the same page.
I've been in a long term relationship and you haven't.
I know things that you don't and I get mad at you for not knowing even
though you haven't even experienced it yet.
That's my fault, I need to learn how to say sorry sometimes.
I'm too prideful and stubborn.
I guess I'm used to always being right in past relationships.
Now that I've met you, you're able to teach me things as well.
Things are good, real good right now.

I did try to get closer to you because I miss you and being close to
you. I drift because I had to move schools, it's really hard to keep up
and be consistent when distance is a big part of it. Once the talking
starts, the claw comes out. I don't tolerate when people say stuff about
me to others. You can say whatever you want, but don't think that I
think any less of it. I don't appreciate it nor will I still around.

On a heavier note,
Graduation is soon, not my graduation but for the guys.
Oh how I really pray to Buddha to see them walk.

I want to go to your graduation, but I don't think you would want me to
now that we're not together. It's just, all of this time, everyone
doubted that you won't graduate and I was always there by your side
believing that you would, having faith in you, and from the start, I was
just waiting for that day for you to graduate so you could prove
everyone wrong. Now I don't even have that position in your life
anymore...I think I'm the last person you would want to talk to right
now. I hope by then, things will lighten up.

Have faith<3