learn to love,

In two days I went to watch Harry Potter, Funny People, The Ugly Truth and 500 Days of Summer with Dotty and Kat. I enjoyed all four of the movies, Harry Potter not so much because I didn't remember the 5th one to understand the 6th one. I thought it was the 4th one the whole time I was watching it...but I did like it. I lovedddddddddd The Ugly Truth, everything about it was so true and it made me see a lot of things about guys in a different perspective. My favorite was 500 Days Of Summer, it's a must watch. Besides the girl crush I have on Zooey Deschanel, I just love the movie in general. I realized, I'm Summer Fin. My views on love and relationships is different now, my mentality has completely changed. I guess you can say...I don't want to fall in love. Or be in love. It's complex, my feeling towards love I mean. I want to say I don't believe in love but I do, I was in it and I loved another person more than I loved anything else in my life. I'm a hopeless romantic and I do believe in love but I don't want to be in it anymore. There are days though, that I wake up and I say to myself, "I miss being in love. I miss being loved by another person, I miss loving someone else." But it's true, hands down, I'm too proud for love. I don't want to be anybody's something. Not that it scares me, but if they love me then they love me, that's all that matters. I want to be my own person and independent on my own. I'm indecisive when it comes to what I want because there are times I can admit that I want something, but only to myself. And to the whole world, I act like I don't need it. I'm drastically changing and growing, good or bad, in the end I'm all I have.


There's so many things I can't wait for this year/Summer/Winter, my heart just yearn for them to come and to happen.



And I have to have to have to watch this<3