when one door closes,

I just found out from one of the co-workers that they really wanted to hire me BUT because I'm only sixteen, they couldn't. Talk about "I sometimes wish I was older" moment. It's okay though, at least I know that they were going to and was considering it. They need people eighteen and over to serve alcohol thoughl. I didn't get hired but I still feel good knowing that they wanted me and they liked me =') That means that other places could possibly like me as well. I'm just that much closer =) Maybe I'll have better luck getting a job after next month when I turn seventeen. Cross fingers! I still have many places I can still apply at and I have references and background history of working. Plus everyone's going back to school and I have plenty of hours to work anywhere really.

My blog this morning was pretty out of the blue, but that was how I felt and I'm not going to deny what I'm feeling. It's a relief to let it all out, to really just say it out loud. I missed class today because I was so tired and woke up around 4 PM to my mom telling my dog to come wake me up, and he did by scratching my face =( I need to sleep earlier, my acne is not going to get better by me sleeping even later than usual. I had Joe's Italian Ice again today also after Kim and I dropped off my mom, it was sooo yummy =) I can seriously go there every week considering how I want to try almost all of the flavors. Then went to Tastea with Susan, Keeemba, Kelly and Tracy. I never liked Tastea so I don't think I would want to work there, plus you're bound to always see people you know. It's the "asian hang out place" as everyone say. Afterward we went night swimming =) Now having Taco Nights and margaritas. I got to drive home from the grocery store too =) I can't wait to take my permit and get my license so I can drive around. I feel pretty proud of myself for driving so well even though at first I knew nothing at all but I learned pretty quick.

My life's great, it really is. There are things that can be better but I still have faith and I won't ever give up on hope. Regardless of whatever, there's always opportunities and room for improvement.

My sn has been unprivate for two days and I didn't even know until weird people started to aim me. Apparently it's private in the first place so I don't have to talk to people I don't want to. I'm going to make my blog post private very soon just because I remembered I like the thought of privacy and not having people in my business and if they are, I want to know who. They should have footprints like Xanga so I can lock it and only users can look at it.

And my blog song right now is Khoi singing from the band he formed. I have to listen to it over and over because I have already forgotten what he sounds like. It's so sad, I miss him so much. I know he's physically still alive but I feel like he's not really even here. It just hurts, I miss him sososo much and sometimes it feels unbearable. There are days where I look down on my buddylist and I'm wondering, where's khoi, how come we haven't talked, I need to text him, I need someone to talk to. It just breaks my heart, one of my closest closest closest friend to me in the world, is not here. I have to keep my head up though and write to him everyday, I just need to have faith in myself and the rest of the guys.