I'm letting my feelings get the best of me,

What the hell right?  I never have feelings. I never feel for anything. It's not something I'm proud of, but it's who I am, and I don't want that to change. I'm always sooo good at not letting people in, or even letting them pick a part of my brain. It's so difficult for me to be vulnerable with or to another person. Lately I've been  finding myself shedding away every inch of my pride. To me, no matter what, the risks is never worth it. I know I'm being completely scared and close minded, but that's the way it has to be. For now at least.