soul-searching

The only reason why sometimes people are so happy at the beginning but by the end of the day they're still miserable because they absorbed all of these lies just to get by. Then finding out that reality is still going to be there for them to finally face when this whole front and everything is figured out.

I don't blog as much anymore. Sometimes barely at all. I guess you can say I've lost my passion for writing. Or maybe...I just like to keep everything to myself.

I've lost touched with everybody, everyone, the world, and I actually really like it. Probably because it doesn't come with drama, baggage, and just time to figure myself out. I was always the girl that isolated herself and no one ever knew what was up with me, how I am, what I'm doing. I'm so glad I haven't gone through that phase where I have to party to have fun at my age, in my opinion, my mentality is much older and wiser than most. I can easily cope with things that come my way, and yeah I admit, I got my weaknesses but doesn't everybody. Just don't mistake my kindness for weakness because I'm someone who doesn't tolerate and stick around to put up with things if it's just going to trouble my life.

I've been at ease lately and more understanding than usual, but part of me is just biting my tongue. I still hold some things in making it unhealthy because one of these days I'll just blow up. But, I help myself get through it by seeing the stuff that bothers me unnecessary and little so I ignore it or deal with it. Sometimes it's good to speak up when you're not okay with things, other times you really just have to be considerate of everyone and try not to take it to the heart.

Life's good for me, it always is and will be because that's what I make of it. Things will get better, slowly but surely.