Sometimes it's hard to want something when it's not even within your reach. You can't grasp it in your hands even if you saw it floating across your face...
This will be a pretty long update.
This will be a pretty long update.
Winter Formal is a maybe now, for some reason I don't get excited over high school events anymore. I guess sometimes you have other things to enjoy and look forward to, something more mediocre. I love that word, mediocre. I like how I'm not as girly because I actually enjoy having similar interests as guys. I love cars, games, and definitely sports. I hate seeing girls try to fit in where they like cars only because "guys think it's hot." I personally think it's losing its significance if people only like it for the reason it's cool. Get on my level, seriously.
Kevin's grandpa's sixty second birthday was couple days ago. His mom made "lau" and I haven't had it for awhile. Everyone says I'm "white-washed" considering I don't eat Asian food often but I guess when you don't eat Asian food a lot you really like it even more. I love fat noodles, I think it's my favorite thing I can eat every single day like cheese =) Hahaha, I know people think cheese is gross but I love it. That's kind of how people started calling me Minnie Mouse because of my size too. I'm craving Tofu House right now too :(
I've lost weight over the past months, I'm back to my old weight under one hundred pounds. It's kind of a good and bad thing. I've been working out though so I do feel good inside and out. I don't really mind being small but sometimes I wish I was taller...I can take a compliment but sometimes I hear it over and over it gets annoying. I literally hate when people tell me they think I'm white/mix. People need to find out on their own before they start assuming right off the bat.
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You know you have a back bone when you don't take anyone's (excuse my french) shit. I feel like I've become more of a mean person this past year just because I always have a lot to say, I always have strong opinions, and I disagree with majority of everything that doesn't follow through my mind when people do it. But to be honest, I'm so glad I am this way. I don't take shit from anyone, I don't care who you are, how old you are, where you come from. Don't come at me as if you know everything and try and attack me, I won't stand around and just let you walk all over me. I am probably one of the nicest people in general, but if I allow people to degrade me or my thoughts I'll feel fake. You have to speak up for what you believe in or else you'll stand up for nothing. As long as you still consider other people and not criticize their thoughts at the same time.
Kevin's grandpa's sixty second birthday was couple days ago. His mom made "lau" and I haven't had it for awhile. Everyone says I'm "white-washed" considering I don't eat Asian food often but I guess when you don't eat Asian food a lot you really like it even more. I love fat noodles, I think it's my favorite thing I can eat every single day like cheese =) Hahaha, I know people think cheese is gross but I love it. That's kind of how people started calling me Minnie Mouse because of my size too. I'm craving Tofu House right now too :(
I've lost weight over the past months, I'm back to my old weight under one hundred pounds. It's kind of a good and bad thing. I've been working out though so I do feel good inside and out. I don't really mind being small but sometimes I wish I was taller...I can take a compliment but sometimes I hear it over and over it gets annoying. I literally hate when people tell me they think I'm white/mix. People need to find out on their own before they start assuming right off the bat.
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You know you have a back bone when you don't take anyone's (excuse my french) shit. I feel like I've become more of a mean person this past year just because I always have a lot to say, I always have strong opinions, and I disagree with majority of everything that doesn't follow through my mind when people do it. But to be honest, I'm so glad I am this way. I don't take shit from anyone, I don't care who you are, how old you are, where you come from. Don't come at me as if you know everything and try and attack me, I won't stand around and just let you walk all over me. I am probably one of the nicest people in general, but if I allow people to degrade me or my thoughts I'll feel fake. You have to speak up for what you believe in or else you'll stand up for nothing. As long as you still consider other people and not criticize their thoughts at the same time.
I'm over the 'trying to make everyone happy' phase. Trust me, when it all comes down to it, no one is guarantee to be there for you than yourself. You'll feel so much better once you start living your life for you and not up to anyone's expectations.
Tran's birthday last Saturday.Eric, Jen, Manh, Tran, Kevin's mom, me & map dit =) <3
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