kill them with kindness.

Someone "anonymously" messaged me and said,"I didn't know but you are f_cking tiny." Oh my gosh, who the hell does that?! FREAKING CREEPY. Plus, I am only sixteen, I think it's okay for me to be small and even if I'm small forever I'm fine with that. And I don't know how many people have mistaken me for being 18+, I don't look anything over 18 and I hope I don't start looking really old anytime soon at this age.

I think I'm starting to lose my sight on my right eye. Although I have 20/20 vision everything on that eye has become blurry lately. I don't think losing my sight scares me the most. I think not being able to see what else is out there scares me. Because I know there is a lot I still need to see, to experience, to just embrace and I don't want to lose my sight just yet. Hopefully it's my contacts that is causing my eye to be like that and staying up late playing games. I am going to the doctors tomorrow. It's sad to say that a lot of health issues is occurring with my family right now. I really hope everyone gets better because I hate to worry about my family, I just wish them well and for them to be happy and healthy.


You have no idea how confuse I am about us right now. It's like I know exactly what I want but I don't want to let go just yet. I guess deep down, I know I still want to be with you no matter how bad things get and I think deep down, somewhere, I still have faith in us. But I want what's best for me, not stick around just because things are easier that way.

But I know you love me so much, so what do I do now? Do I give in, do I give up? Do I hold on, do I just let go?

I had a dream about Call of Duty today, and it was really weird because it's those dreams that move from one place to another, then turns into something else. It would be so fun if I had a dream about Halo! =) I want to play Halo now, the 4th one is coming out soon. I swear I would never get out of the house if I had it.

The store is opening in two weeks, finally. I really am excited to work with Jennifer, Eric, and Kevin because I get to see Jennifer and Eric often. I am going to start making flyers soon so I can send it to them. And I drove the other day, for less than 10 minutes though. I just need to not be scared when I drive then I am good. Then I need to learn how to drive a stick and I'm set to go. My heart is in love with an AE86, or Miata. Hopefully by the end of this year =)

As I'm typing this I really can't see, hopefully I won't need to get glasses. I think I would be really depressed for the fact I can't hear well already so my vision is the only perfect thing I got. I think I need to stop playing the DS at night. And Choco got a straw hat! It's so cute.

Just had Tofu House, yummmy =)

I am a human-being, I am not an object, I do not have price tags on the back of my neck so stop assigning me your's. I want us to be friends again, but only friends nothing more. This time last year I would've never said anything and just acted like everything was okay. But I've grown over the year and you know that too. Sorry I'm not stupid enough to fall for your "tricks." I'm not who I used to be, I'm less naive.