There are more than meets the eye

What if something is great, but there's something out there that is even greater?

So I was meaning to mention how my mom played a prank on me a few days ago and I got so frustrated I literally cried but was laughing at the same time because I couldn't believe my mom did it to me and she thought it was so funny to make me cry. Then she keeps playing with my DS and won't let me feed Choco!

Anyway, everything is gradually making sense. I mean people would figure I'm hurt or sad, or even upset, but no. I'm really not. I feel relieved because each time I'm always looking for a reason, just one reason, to keep holding on. But now, I don't have any reasons. Not having any reasons is a good enough reason for me to realize it isn't what I want. THIS isn't what I want. It doesn't mean I'm going to stop caring for him, I will no matter what, but this time I'm for sure that this is no longer what I want. I'm one of those hopeless romantic people who believes if you work hard enough together everything will be okay in the end. But sometimes, I think it's meant to not be okay. I think it is the way it is so you can realize that things are not like before and the best thing you should do is just let it go. I know inside all of us we want to be the person to change someone for the better, to make them into a better person, but if they unwillingly want to change then they'll just turn out to be someone they're not. I always want the best for people, in the end I just want them to be happy. But of course, you want them to be happy with you. BUT...what if this isn't who you're meant to be with. And the person you're meant to be with is still out there somewhere, sometimes even closer than you think, are you just going to let them pass you by just because you think you're supposed to be with one person for the rest of your life? I didn't think so. In the end, if we're together or not, I'm going to be happy still because at least for the moment, it was everything I want.

"I'm grabbing a spoon." -FRIENDS.

And I feel really good about it! =)

Girls night yesterday was really fun, I love Tara's dog Nike. He is so cute! =) My favorite part of the whole night was constantly saying,"ting ting ting ting!" <333>