I just want to be by myself right now or at least for awhile. Whatever happens happens though, I can't plan fate and neither will I stop it. Right now though, I did just get out of a serious relationship so I wouldn't want to rush into one instantly. For every breakup, you set better standards for your next relationship. I feel as if my heart is so strictly guarded that anyone who tries to get me to open my heart, I just push them away further. Just because I'm always the one to end up getting hurt. You can say I care way too much, but it's fine, it's better than not giving a shit about someone.
Maybe I need to look past those flaws, or maybe, I just don't need to give anyone a chance. It's not that they don't deserve it or anything, but I don't want to waste my time until I know it's a sure thing.
Or maybe...I just need to stop falling
On the other hand, there's going to be new addition to the family. Her name is Zooey (like Zooey Deschanel!) Her previous owner gave her the name so I want to keep it, and keep her. I know she might get bigger and I know everyone stereotype that pitbulls are dangerous but it's just depending on how the owner treats the dog. I seriously fell in love with her when Fatboy Kevin brought her to our workplace for Kevin and I see what she looks like. Zooey is half my weight so I couldn't even walk her without her dragging me, but I'm sooo excited! My mom doesn't know yet, and I'm not going to ask her either. I'm just going to bring Zooey home and tell my mom I rescued her and my mom would feel bad and let me keep her =) I hope! And Chocolate will have a friend now
Chocolate Chip is sick so he's been under the blanket all day even until I got out of work =( Poor baby, I need to take him to get his shots soon and since it has been hot lately I'm going to take my bike home from Kevin's grandma's house so I can cruise around my neighborhood with Chocolate in my basket =)
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