restless,

Work has been taking most of my time. 11 AM-9 PM but I choose to work everyday for that long. I love work, even though sometimes people don't even come but I have fun with eric, jennifer & kevin. It's chill because we do whatever we want, Jennifer & Eric are like the best managers ever. Eric's just a fatso, you would think we lose a lot of weight because we all work a lot but we eat even more now =( My appetite hasn't been very appealing lately though, nothing at all, taste good. I think I would love some Boiling Crab soon! :)

People always ask me if it's awkward to work with him but I always say no because it isn't. At least we don't have to make it awkward. I know he still loves me and I still love him, of course. So maybe we're just going to put our relationship on pause for awhile because right now isn't a good time.

You can't expect me to give you a straight out answer...I told you already that it won't be fair for you if I still love my boyfriend and I don't want to like you to get over kevin. I'm not over him because I choose not to be, I just see you as as friend but I guess all that went down the drain.

It's not over for him and I yet. At least for now.

Classes have been easy peasy, the schedule is so convenient for me. It's like a vacation everyday for me, but I don't want to take it for granted and be a couch potato so I try to work as much as I can and be active.

The new house has been surprisingly adaptable, just a bit scary every now and then and my room is super cold. I can't wait to paint it though and decorate it. I get to really express myself through art. Which speaking of, I can't wait to get my tattoo. No rush, I still have a lot of time to figure out what I really want. I want something that defines me, that is totally me, and hopefully no one will ever have it or have something that comes close to it.

My mom got out of the hospital this morning and her surgery was yesterday, I am really praying that she will start getting better soon. As soon as she gets better, and Kim finds another job and my sister moves back home, everything will fall back into its place. Before things get better sometimes they do have to get worse. All I need to do right now is have faith.

I miss you kmq, I will be praying for you every single day until I finally get to see you. You're one of the main guys in my life and I honestly wouldn't know what my life would be like today if it wasn't for you being a part of it. I see teenagers and adolescents doing stupid things all the time, and at times it may look fun, I am so glad I have much more to offer in my life. I don't think I will ever stoop myself down that low to do anything that I know I would not be proud of. I have faith in you and I hope you're alright.

Kevin brought moonshine over my house earlier and she got scared so she pooped on my mom's bed/my little cousin and my mom kept laughing. It smelled so bad :( He helped me clean it though and also got me jack in the box. Food coma, yummm =) Then went to Walmart to get Jo Halo 3 so now we can Halo because there's three remotes, I'll get my xbox soon so I can play xbox live against them. Yay! And I also cannot wait to have parties! My backyard is so perfect for tanning too. My cousins and aunt + uncle came down from Washington and they're leaving tomorrow. My cousin's are so cute because they make you feel admirable that they want to be just like you. Except they love High School Musical and Hannah Montana...which is common for kids I guess. Hahaha.

I can't wait for Summer, hellooooo Australia! =)