stay positive,

Sometimes I guess things do have to get worse before they start getting better. I feel like I'm stuck in a rut, and a bit lazy I might add. I feel as if I can do something about this but I'm not putting my full effort to try. I hate feeling helpless.

Right now I just want to get away. Not get away from anything, just go and play. It is Summer and I don't want to start it off with complications, especially when it's just internal conflicts that I'm dealing with myself and can easily get over. Kim and I went to drop Karina off at LAX this morning at 4 AM, she's going to North Carolina to visit her boyfriend. I would be too afraid to go on my own, but so far for this Summer, I have three destinations to go. Australia, Washington and San Francisco. I'm sure I'm not going to all three of them though. I can't wait for New York this Winter, just everything about it seems like a dream. And there's no one else I rather go with than my bestfraaand, lover, favoritest person in the world; my sister kimberly fatso nguyen =)

I feel like my life is being put on pause right now. I absolutely hate it, I just want to tell it to start already! I need change, I can easily adapt to things and I just want so much more out of life. There's nothing wrong with wanting more. I will never settle, no such thing as settling in my book. I want what I want and I deserve only the best.

I know that a lot of people think I'm always carefree and optimistic, but trust me, don't wish to be me. Set aside the fact that everyone should be their own person. But everyone somehow perceives me to be the girl to "have it all." I mean, I'm humble and I appreciate it. Just there is always more to me than meets the eye. Yeah I'm happy the majority of the time but I don't pull happiness out of nowhere. I make it happen for myself. Not only that but I'm not going to put myself out there when I'm weak so the world can use all of those reasons to knock me when I'm down. I do have my struggles, and to me, no matter how important or non mediocre your struggle may seem, it's your struggle and it makes you who you are today. I'm glad to hold myself strongly enough for people to at least know I'm always happy and positive, or always trying my best to live my life.

"You know life. That should be the new phrase. I know life. Or like "I am life." HAH."
-Henry Nguyen.

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Live the life you'll love, love the life you'll live.