my life would be easy,

I seriously love them to deaffffffffffffffth! <3333333

Tiffy's birthday party on Saturday was a huge major success! I had sooo much fun, honest to Buddha, everything was all worth it. I love my cousins and most of all my sisters. I really love the fact how family oriented I am, they really are everything to me. It was good to see my some of my sister's old friends again and everyone said I really grew up =) I'm glad to say, I am not a light weight drinker! My new love=Mike's Hard Lemonade, I had like 3 of it that night, and I think about 47928742974 jello shots and a lot of other drinks. My fridge now has like million beers, that means, BEER PONG. And it's cute because I have this glass case in my house, and it has wine in it so Tiffy and I put the rest of the liquor in there and it looks really cute for some reason =) We're going to throw an end of the Summer party and then two more months it's my 17th birthday. I really ended up having so much fun and it made me realize how much I hate going to random parties and that I'm glad I never got caught up with partying. Dotty and Kat sleptover that night and the next morning I didn't get a hangover =) I would really hate to ever get one, so far none yet. Woke up early and ate leftover party food and then went to their house to swim. It was probably one of the bestest weekend yet.

Then yesterday morning I had about two hours of sleep. I slept at 6 AM and woke up around 8 AM to go to court for the guys' trial. I really couldn't sleep, all I was thinking about was them and how I was going to see them again. When I got to there, Connie and Khoi's mom was waiting for me. I really love Khoi's mom because although I'm just Khoi's friend, she makes me feel like her daughter somehow. Their trial ended up being postponed. As I walked out, all I did was cry. I felt like such a big baby but I really couldn't hold it in. I haven't seen them for the longest time and all I wanted to do was see them. I know I can visit the other guys but because I'm not one of their closest friends, I don't want to waste a visit, while someone really close to them can go visit them instead. I had so much emotions rushing through me. I really hope things will eventually look up for them soon. Got to have faith<3

So for my sister's birthday, one of her friend took her to a fortune teller. When she told Kim and I what the lady told her, everything made sense. The scary part was how accurate everything she said was. Honestly, I wouldn't go to a fortune teller because I don't want to know what my future is going to be like. Not only that but if I was to know something bad is going to happen, I don't want to live my life everyday scared. Right now, I know everything sucks for my family but I'm not ever going to give up. Being cursed or having bad karma, whatever it is, I'm always going to fight until the very end and hopefully I will win. Like they said, the future is always constantly changing. One small decision can affect everything and I know for sure that if I'm not happy with something, I can change it. If it's not the future I want, I will change it. I'm not going to stand around and let bad things happen and not do anything about it. I really have faith in myself and I know that everything will get better. I just know it.