still on my feet,

One more day until tiff's birthday party! I really can't wait. All the cleaning, cleaning the backyard, the house, my room, the lawn, the grass, everrrrrything! And yet it's not over with because I still have to cook tomorrow, run more errands, go to the dentist and try to get my hair done. Sososo much to do in so little time. I'm so tired and physically drained but once everything is done I can finally relax and have some fun. Surprisingly I'm still sane. I've never planned a birthday party before with a bunch of people and I never had the responsibility of being the one to get everything done. It makes me can't wait for my 17th birthday this year because I want it to be really big! =) And knowing my ohana, it's going to be sooo fun.

I couldn't visit Phoenix today for his birthday because I had so much to do but for sure I am going to visit him tomorrow and drop off his card. Even until this day, when I talk about him, it still makes me want to cry my heart out. I really wish some people took in this experience and realize what life is all about and not to grieve on what doesn't matter or the little things. Life's about living and learning and most of all, moving forward. There's nothing you can do about life, you can't stop it, you can't slow it down, you just have to enjoy the ride while you still can because anything can happen. I learn to appreciate the people in my life and I choose to not dwell on those who don't matter. Even if I end up not being friends with the people I was friends with, I'm not going to be immature towards them, I'm not going to resent or even spite them. For me, they were once my friend and I know if anything were to ever happen to them or to me for that matter, I wouldn't want a day to wake up and regret the decisions I've made. I will still respect them if they give me the same treatment because in the end, we are all human and we're all looking for one main thing in our life, a reason to be happy. I truly appreciate my friends, my sisters and most of all my mom for everything. I may not have everything life, just the things to be happy.