I've been feeling extremely motivated more than ever. Motivated to do good with basically everything. Work, school, friends, family, all of the sensible things. I want to start a Summer project, with myself. I want to reinvent, become better, definitely become a better me. Break the bad habits and kick it to the curb. I just feel everyday I should live my life happy and at my best and I'm motivated to make what I want in my life all happen. A lot to put on myself but I know if I set my mind to it, I can definitely do it.
Summer projects so far is to get in shape. I'm sooo addicted to the gym. Most people always say they want to get fit but they never actually take the initiative to do something about it. I love being fit, I love staying fit, I feel healthier because I am actually being active. I never put anything in my body that I know I shouldn't so I'm glad I don't do drugs and I rarely drink. I miss Volleyball, I got into it for awhile but I couldn't keep up with it as much because I'm always shadowed with more important things. I am actually considering to get a tan, everyone say I look too white for Summer. I need to get more tan, you know, quote "the nice tan, the one you can rub." Unquote, Henry Nguyen =) I know you're reading this sucker, and I miss you a lot since we went to talking every single day to barely talking now! Sorry I haven't been home and when I am you're at work, we shall go to the gym soon :] Continuing on, no more soy products, cut down on the spicy food, no more eating after 8 PM also. That is going to be a hard one because I eat when I have nothing else to do. I hate my weight sometimes, it goes up and down drastically. Sometimes I am actually happy I gain some weight, being under 100 is never a good thing for me. New drastic change for my hair, I love dyeing my hair and I'm always satisfied with the results but I want a more change, not a haircut though. I'm not going to cut my hair any shorter for a long while because it took me about 3 years to finally have it at its length now. Paint my room, once and for all. We've moved into my new house for at least 3 months now and Kim and I haven't gotten a chance to paint our room. Then I want to build a little library in my room as well. Just redesign everything I can possibly think of =) And that's what I have in mind so far.
I also talked to my mom about the tattoos I want so now I want it sooner than ever. At first I planned to get it when I'm 21 just because I feel like that's the age more suited for me to finally know what I want, but the tattoos I want have so much meaning to me and I know I really want it. So possibly 18th birthday next year, I don't want it this year because I'm sure if it's something I really want then it can wait a little longer until I'm very certain.
Things are great, but once in awhile it's such a blur. Sometimes I don't know what I want, what I truly really want. And it's harder when I want something but it's not even within my reach. Then things start feeling impossible to me, but impossible is zero. I am always going to try my best to make things happen for myself, it doesn't matter what the struggles I will have to go through, I know I'm going to endure it and in the end it'll all be worth it.
I would love a library like this one day...<3
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