that's not my name,

I've never been more convinced that I don't want to be in a relationship. Of course sometimes I miss having someone and most of all, I miss that certain person. But all in all, I've never been happier alone and all I need is myself. Sometimes I do ask myself,"how do I end up getting caught with guys who are such dicks?" Like honestly. I'm sure once in awhile we all have those thoughts. And for most girls, I know we all go for a bad guy because we want to be the one to change them, and for the most part I like bad guys because I like a challenge. Not only that, back then, I used to think a really great guy is too much of a good thing that I'm scared so I overlook them. I know what I deserve though, and right now I deserve to have some fun! =) I'm not swearing off boys, because God knows I hang out with my guys almost everyday so it'll be a bit ironic but I'm saying whatever happens happens. I am not planning anything and I'm not going to look for anything. I'm just more guarded, I don't care if I'll be tough because I'm not going to allow myself to feel the unhappiness that I have dealt with in the past with relationships.


For now, my heart is mine and no one will get their hands on it.