thoughts of lately,

I really want to play Halo 3, like now, right now.

Everyone's been trying to find a Summer job and I'm trying to find a more permanent job because I really do have all the time in the world to manage a job at the same time as everything else. Plus, I love working so I can handle a lot of hours. For some reason I just really love to work. I feel useful when I'm working and in the end it's all worth it. I've been feeling helpless lately, not so much helpless; more like useless. Sometimes I feel so spoiled because I don't have much responsibilities but I know I'm not materialistically spoiled since I never ask for anything and I hate to shop. I don't want to work at the OCfair for so many reasons, to me it's just labor work really. And plus, I don't want to be out in the sun a lot otherwise I'm going to get super dark. That's a minor reason, I know. I can easily deal with getting dark but I just think that being tan looks so dirty. Some people look nice tan, I am not one of those people. And I don't want to go from looking Vietnamese/White to Filipino/White. A job is a job though, I'm just contemplating on what I should do.

Taking Back Sunday and Blink 182 is performing together in September, now for sure I have to go. I swear to Buddha, I would totally just faint once I see Blink 182 perform together as a band again. I'm not even going to start with Taking Back Sunday, I will finally be allow to go to other concerts since I vow that TBS would be my first concert! So if I go to this one, I can finally go to the other ones =) Coachella and Bamboozle Left 2010!

Speaking of 2010, I realize how quickly time is passing by. I feel like I'm growing up too quickly sometimes, my mentality is like an 80 year old women. I just need to remind myself that it's okay sometimes to make mistakes and to just live my life carefree instead of always overanalyzing every detail to become perfect.