walking in circles,

I keep finding myself walking on this road where it leads to nowhere but back to where I started. It seems to me that I have two paths but I choose not to take any of them. I don't know if it's because I'm afraid to pick one or because I'm not ready to make any decisions yet. I really wish I knew exactly what is going to happen right now, but I don't. I've never been more uncertain about something in my life. I like not knowing where I'm heading but there are a few things I am so desperate to find out how it's going to end, or even begin. I want to know if we are going to be okay. I have so many reasons to not care but then I find myself looking for at least one reason to give a shit. I have so much going on for me right that I know I shouldn't even put a thought on anything that won't benefit me. I have so much to do in so little time that I just want to get everything out of the way or have all the pieces fall together already. I'm just going to focus on myself and really do what I got to do.

One of the things I dislike most in a person is them constantly making plans with me and never having any follow throughs. It just makes me disappointed and I don't ever want to hang out with them, ever, because I don't want to waste my time making time for others when they are just inconsiderate.