live for those nights that turn into mornings,

I feel like there is never enough time in the day to do everything, or even to do anything. I just want to do absolutely everything! But I assume in some aspects it's a good thing to feel like this because it means I'm having such a great time that time flies by so fast. I had a great night though, I don't know what it was. Real talks with the guys? Getting to spend time with my twin? Finally being away from my usual daily environment? Maybe even finally having my mind set on something else? I don't know, but I wish tonight lasted longer or I could do it every single night. I feel so hesitant, and it's not normal for me to feel like this. RIGHT NOW, like exactly right now, I just feel absurd and I want to dance on my bed and jump into someone's arms. I, like, this, feeling. Quite a lot. Careless I might say but I can't stop thinking about it. My heart is jumping in circles and I feel restless...just completely restless. I'm happy, I liked the talk in the car, I liked tonight, it was really different. I love my friends<3


School's coming back and we should not start something we know we won't finish. I'm not going to set myself up for disappointment no matter how much my heart tells me it's going to be okay because deep down, it is everything I want, but it's everything I don't need right now.