Yesterday was soooo amazingly fun for me, so much better than the day before. It reallllllly made up for the terrible night I had. I had so much fun, bonding, playing with my friends, and messing around with them. They're so silly and they make me so happy when I'm with them. It's truely amazing, sometimes I feel as if some of my friends aren't down for what they say, but when it all comes down to it, they appreciate and have so much love for me. It was one of those nights where I just feel sooooo alive and is so happy to be surrounded by good company of others.
I love real talk with the guys, like I would not ever trade my friendship with my guy friends for a girl best friend or a close girlfriend. I don't care that I have more guy friends than girls, if I'm at my best and happiest with them then that's all that matters. Whenever they ask me if I'm ever going to give someone a chance, I just straight out tell them,"no, I don't want to be with anyone." I don't want to have someone complete me or make me happy, or have the dependency of my happiness from another person. I got my own thing and I rather keep doing my own thing. Plus, if I'm not happy then why would I want more weight on my shoulders by adding a relationship to it. Right now, I am extremely happy, I always am by the end of the day but I have other things I need to worry about. I'm the kind of girl who doesn't wait around for anyone. My feet is always constantly moving, it keeps going forward, just keep going and going and going nonstop. That's just me. My heart moves ten times faster, it just keeps moving on and on. Nothing is worth for me to stay and take a chance on or to look at and analyze. I don't wait around because I feel like no one deserves my time, talk about deserving my all, no one has gain that from me. I may find someone interesting but once my heart has left, it's gone. I don't want to hesitate about leaving things behind because I know it's for the best.
I don't know why good girls like me, find bad guys like you interesting. I guess I can say this for all of the girls who ever liked an a**hole or douchebag, we just like the challenge. It's the chase, it's the adrenaline, it's just the challenge that makes it interesting. You're not an ass or a douchebag though which is the good part because you're so nice and good all around. Just, not my type of guy. But it doesn't take a whole day to recognize sunshine, so when a good thing is happening, I'm not going to pass it up.
It's true, they say that you don't know what you have until it's gone but you also don't know what you're missing until it arrives. I'm too blessed to be stressed<3
Monday, August 24, 2009
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