miss m.i.a,

I've always hated that phrase or word,"m.i.a." But that is what I have been, missing in action. Sometimes I really don't give a sh*t about sh*t anymore. Ha ha, if that makes any sense really. I love being carefree and just do whatever I want. There are days where I just want to say to the world, F*CK OFF, and just go do my own thing. Which I am always doing though, I just like when people aren't in my business and know what I'm doing and what not. This past weekend have been so good to me, cruise on Friday with the cuzzos and sibling, it was sooo fun! A really great experience with my love ones =) Then Saturday twinzo picked me up at home to meet up with everyone and went to Orange Circle for the Street Fair =) It was really crowded which I somewhat hate because I get lost easily, try getting lost and not having a phone. Afterward headed back to Chreees's, he was super drunk-off-his-butt and we watched Harold & Kumar, Menace, chilled and took care of him. Then yesterday Diana picked me up again after church and we went to play with the amigos again. Supposed to have a movies night but we just went to Reagan's house, King's Cup! Then watched Superbad and gave Reagan some new "tattoos" =) I really lovelovelove chill nights where you just hang out with a group of friends, rather than go out and party. REAL TALK. Ha ha. Like always. Then I ended up sleeping over Diana's house, we didn't sleep until 7 AM, I ended up waking up around 3ish because Diana wanted to let me sleep in more :') Picked/dropped Tom off, went to Wendy's and ate for almost an hour since we always have so much to talk about and finally saw Nanthavong! Talked to him, it's sooo nice to see old friends again. I really miss him =) Just felt like the perfect weekend to me, exactly what I needed...


I really don't care about a lot of things which may come off as a bad thing to everyone but I care about what I should care for, not unnecessary things. I'm not the kind of girl to dwell on things that will burden my life, let alone let it get to me.

I don't wait around when I know some things are never going to come. I don't want things when I know chances are I won't ever get it. I'm not one to always be the chase or make you constantly go after me or play hard to get, but I'm never the one to run after you either. If people leave, then they leave. They already made the definite decision of leaving so I don't see any point in going after them. If you want to stay, then you'll stay. If you want me to stay, you better let me know because I don't hesitate ever on leaving when it's time to let go.

I haven't written to Khoi since two weeks before graduation in June, right now I feel like the world's worse friend to him, and I miss court two weeks ago too. I need to update/write him a five page letter and I suppose I should visit the guys soon as well. Even if Kevin and I aren't together anymore and they were his friends before they were mine, I still care for them like they're my brothers. And Khoi, who's one of my bestest friends, I don't want him to ever think I stopped caring or had no time for him. I miss and love them so much. Stay up guys, things can only get better from here.

Well, time to catch up on my homework and I'll post up a few pictures for eye candy whenever I feel like it.