sleepdreamrepeat,

Tonight's the first night I'm attempting to sleep early, at least sleep before 1 AM. I'm really determined to continue sleeping early if I make it through the first night. I've been told way too many times that I need to sleep earlier since I always sleep late then I end up waking up even later during mid-day. One of the main reasons I hate sleeping late is the fact that it causes me to break out. No matter how much I wash my face, drink water, eat less spicy/soy food, I still breakout from sleeping late. Also growth involves a lot with sleep and I desperately want to grow an inch or two. Don't take me wrong, 5'2 is average height but I like it better if I'm a little bit taller. I can't complain though because there are others who are still under five feet so I'm content. I need to condition myself to have better habits, they say old habits die hard but I need to change it soon before it takes over my life. No more sleeping late is one of the main things I definitely have to change, then eat more so I can have more to balance and work out. That's pretty much all I need to work on right now.

Give me a good book and my mind feels more at ease to sleep at night. The reasons I even stay up anyway is because I'm never tired, I don't do much to get tired out easily. Not only that but also by the end of the day I just lay there and catch myself with my eyes opened, looking at the ceiling, thinking for hours until the sun comes up. I guess you can consider it daydreaming, but in my case it's at night before bed so I'm "nightdreaming?" I don't even know, I just picture things in my head or imagine life, etc etc. My head needs to be where my heart is, but that's never the case anyway.

Tomorrow is the cruise to celebrate Kat's birthday, again, with my lovely siblings and cuzzos. I hope tomorrow turns out fun, but I'm not expecting anything. September 14th really is around the corner, I really can't wait to see Taking Back Sunday and Blink 182. I am by far, extremely excited and can't wait for it. I need to buy/make tshirts. I think it will be the happiest day of my life, I'm not even kidding. I want to see The Killers next or The Postal Service, I have yet to see Common but I'm hoping soon.

So as far as the future goes, next year Tiffy might move to SF to go to art school and Karina is already leaving to live with her boyfriend in North Carolina for half a year so it'll just be Kim, my mom and I. It has always felt like the family is just us anyway, just for the fact all the struggles dealt, it's as if we've dealt with it together. My mom and my sister makes me really happy when I see them happy, I know it's a lot to decide for the future but we're making plans already and I want them to follow through. I just want a brighter and better future. As for anything else, I'm just going to let life takes me where it wants to. In the end, everything happens for a reason and nonetheless, I'm blessed with the best.