If things around you don't change, change the things you're around.

As I was laying in bed yesterday for 6 hours straight, I couldn't sleep. My eyes was getting tired, I was getting sleepy, but I couldn't fall asleep. All I did was think...think for 6 hours straight. That's all I've been doing for the past 12 years of my life. I never sleep, I can never fall asleep right away even if I tried. I just lay there and daydream or think. I thought about everything that I could possibly think of. Love, life, myself. I did a lot of analyzing and reevaluating.

I am very much happy with myself and with my life, but...there are things and certain areas that I can change to make it better. I want to change things around this year and I'm more than motivated to do so. I'm determined.

I'm excited for school, even though I've always hated it. School was never for me. From the first day of kindergarten I even remembered crying and not wanting to leave the house 'til the day I was dunzo with it. I knew I hated it. But I know, school's very important. It took me the hard way to finally realize and accept that. In order for me to become even more successful in life, I got to do good in school. I'm thankful and grateful for having the most supportive family in the world. My mom has never pushed me to do anything that I didn't want to. She allowed me to grow as my own person and to learn from my own mistakes, and because of her, I am who I am today. My sisters, my cousins, everyone around me. They watched me fall, they watched me get back up and let me do things at my own pace. They support me with what I choose to do and not judge me. And for that, I am forever grateful for the people in my life.

I have to start going to the gym again. I went to the doctors recently and I'm considered underweight, even though I don't feel/look like it at all. I have to eat more and exercise often. I'm limiting myself to drinking beer at least once a month only. Ha ha ha, I want this beer belly gone. Also, I am going to try my very hardest to sleep early, and, eat more meat. Most importantly, save up money for my car/project.

I am ready to take on these challenges. I don't know what's exactly in store for 2011, bu I know that no matter what happens, everything's goin to be okay. Havefaith, always