Welcoming the new year with open arms,

I ended 2010 more perfect than I could imagine, with some of the people I love the most and with my significant other. We all gathered at Mikey's, and once the clock hit 11:30, we took shots until the countdown. Right at 12, I looked over at Johnson and he says to me,"you're my first new years kiss, ever." And in that moment, I felt really important for some reason. More important than usual.

I look back at 2010 and I feel like it was such an amazing year. I started out 2010 by myself, being closed-off, isolated and I was the kind to not let anyone in. Shortly after, I met Johnson and things changed a lot. When we met, we were both starting off sort of fresh, no baggage, no burden; we didn't even know each other when we met. But for sure, we clicked right away. We were both slightly damaged as well, with our past relationship. Soon after, we both healed from the help of each other. Quickly and surely. After seeing each other for awhile, we officially became a couple, we both then saw each other changing; for the better. He quit drugs after we became official. I even told him that he didn't have to do anything if he didn't want to. It wasn't because I didn't care whether the person I am with is doing drugs or not, it's for the fact I realized that I don't want to be that person to try to make him stop living the way he has been living just for me. I knew in my mind, I didn't have the rights to tell someone how to live. I didn't have that rights over him, let alone, over anyone. Yet, he still quit for me. I became less cynical and less bitter overtime. My heart got so much nicer, and I wasn't that girl I resulted to anymore after dating my ex. I then saw myself letting him in and the people around me. I realized, all I ever have to do is be honest with my feelings. I realized, not all couples have to argue or fight, or I don't have to cry every night. I realized, not all relationships are the same. I realized, I grew up. It was because the way I used to deal with things were not the best ways, and I've learned to handle things differently now.

Now our one year is just right around the corner and to be honest, it doesn't even feel like almost a year. Everyday is so effortless. Everyday doesn't feel like work. And just because I don't love him yet, doesn't mean I never will, or it doesn't mean I don't care for him. Just because I don't plan out our future or say things like, I want to marry him or he's the only person for me forever, doesn't mean he's not for me now. I'm a live-in-the-moment-kind-of-girl, I just like to live in the moment.

2010 overall, I grew sososo much. I got my first real job, an office one, a kick-ass one, with two kick-ass bosses and I get to work with my sister. I did a lot of things, I made plenty of mistakes, I learned from them, I had fun, I lived. I really, really lived. And that's all that matters to me, because everyone dies but not everyone lives. That was cliché, but I feel so much for that line. I am sososo blessed to be given the opportunity to live such a life. To be this lucky to have things work out the way they do. I'm still very close to my mom and my ohana, and cuzzies are closer than ever. And to top off the year, my dad came back. Now, it may not be permanent and he may not be the same person anymore but I love him to death. I love him, I love my mom, I love my sisters, my dog Chocolate, my amazing friends and my life. I am prepared and ready for 2011.

I also cut three inches off of my hair out of spontaneity. I am living the life.