Where there is love, there is pain.

I really don't understand why I make so much effort and wear my heart on my sleeves. I mean I know I shouldn't be putting up with all this for so long but my heart always win, my mind is just not following through. I don't want to give up. I guess because I really have a lot of faith in myself, in others, and believe that things are going to be fine. I don't know who I would be today if I thought faith was all a cliche. It really isn't. I can't let this heavy my heart, I have to stay positive, be happy, and not let this bring me down. I can't give it the power to, I can't give him the power to. I hate that I am too forgiving, I just can't fight anymore. It's not that I can't, I just don't want to. Why argue? Why put yourself in that situation where it makes you sad? Why put up with it if it's just going to break your heart? Why why why? Why not determine your own happiness without the dependency of others. I am strong, independent, and hopeful. I know that better days are still here to come, that sometimes things don't have to be so bad. That maybe, just maybe, soon enough I'll be the happiest person on Earth. I complain about how there's no butter, I complain how he doesn't treat me right, I complain that I'm too small, that my dog always leave stuff under my pillow, that I'm sick of people assuming they know me. But if there is one thing I will never complain about, it's life. I really do appreciate the obstacles I have to face because I always come out to be better and stronger. You can say that I'm being too positive when it comes to bad situations but why not? I don't have anything to lose, you can't just stop living your life just because it's not going according to someone else's plan. Understand that bad things happen all the time, take a big breath, breathe it all out and remain calm.

What's worth fighting is worth letting go of.
I may be weak when it comes to letting go, but then when I think about it, it's because you need me. I want to be there for you, I want to love you when it hurts, I want to be that person to make you happy. I want you. If you want me in your life, you'll do something to keep me in it. My heart can break, it can hurt, my heart can put up with everything you've put me through but at least I know I tried. I did my best and if that wasn't enough then it isn't. At least I know I did something and made effort. At least I know I did my part, that I was the one who love the other one more, that I wasn't the one to let it slip through my fingers. At least I know, I loved you with all of my heart, every inch of it and that should be enough. And in the end, I only want you to be happy. I don't mind if it hurts me deep down, if I have to fake a smile, I really don't mind. Because I love you.