All cluttered in one's mind.

I either keep deleting my blogs or keep editing them. My mind is all boggled up lately, I think because I'm sick and I don't even sleep when I lay in bed so I think too much.

The sunrise, the sun sets, my eyes is the only thing that feels alive.

I want change, I crave change. I need to be the change. I want to just have the world in my hands, the world at my feet, and feel ridiculously happy and at ease. I felt that yesterday when I went to the beach, as if it's just me and the ocean. Plus the seagulls that came because Dotty threw Cornuts at them. My mind is somewhere else, my heart is somewhere else, my body and consciousness is somewhere else. I wish they were all together at the same time so I don't feel like something's missing.

I've came to realized, time wishing is time wasting.

Why wish for things? Make it happen for yourself. Unless it's change you want in others, now that's a different story. I want you to change, not change yourself, change your attitude, show me some affection, show me something, anything really. Some improvement and reassurance. You lack so much common sense that it's crazy.

I can tell that you don't know me anymore, it's so easy to forget, it's so easy to forget. I'm falling in memories of you, the things we used to do.

Yellowcard know's exactly what I'm talking about. I love downloading old songs that I used to listen and crank the speakers to. Old music is so good to listen to still. Dotty and I went through so many CDs in the parking lot eating Cold Stones listening to almost all of them. I love days like that.

Show me the world, and I'll show you my soul.
Show me your heart, and I'll show you myself.

I misss you today, Phoenix. Rest in paradise ♥